I WAS ONCE A BALD GIRL

 

Don't Be shocked with that Title 'coz it was really happened to  me But it's Few Years ago When i first time Working as abroad in Oman And it's also my first time live far away from my family. 

       Ofc As spoiled girl lives like that isn't easy for me 'coz All is A new things for me , i Had never do that before at my home 'coz All my sisters or my mom Does, So in a first year it's be my hardest year , one day is like one month , uneasily to through it. 

   And Honestly Cutting my Hair  isn't a first time I did , Since I'm studying at middle school i Never let someone else  touched my hair  'coz I'd like to cut by myself i Don't fking care what other people thinking about my style urakan Tau Not stylish 'coz I'm enjoying when I'd that it's like one strand  of My hair it's like bring one of my problem , Seems weird Right ? but It's Me :D 

     So i just sitting on front of mirror then My hand touch the scissor and other my hand touch the hair comb then after that I'd it , i was Not Cutting so long But only little of my hair for a looks like My Idol it's Agnes Monica , Bhahahahahahxox yeah I'm so adore her 'coz she so awesome and I'd like her style So when she changes her hair style and I'd the same too lol 

   Well let's be back to My topic, as i told you before in first year  it's so hard for me to through it and i was also always makes many mistakes and damage a lot things ,  Poor my boss 'coz they like be my Kelinci percobaaan lol And it's not only 'coz my job and my feelings regretted to my mom What i was doing to her it's totally wrong , How many tears she had fallen down 'coz my act ! Yeah maybe I'm Anak Durhaka 'coz I was Never regret made my mom crying , i said to myself Ihhh Lebay Deeh Gtu Z ampe nanggis 

     

   So naughty right I'm ? but after i knew how hardest to make some money , Ohhh My...... !!! I'm so wrong to my mom And When i called to Home i never forget to say Forgive to my mom 'coz i just worried if it'll be too late 'coz we don't know what'll happen on the future But i always hopes it's No 'coz I not yet make my mom Smiling and Proud to have daughter like me ,

    So it was in the middle of night When My bozz already fall  asleep And the babies too So i had my own times  

First Step I'm Cutting my hair till so short then  After that i used Pencukur rambut  But it didn't work 'coz it's only used for small amount But i had other ideas it's i broke that the hair shaver And then Saya hanya Menggunakan Silet"y Saja And No body knows if  i cutted all my Hair till i give them  know 

so that's my other stories Hope you more more know me lol 

DAY ONE

      Hari pertama memang sellu semangat mengelora lol v sebelum sya melakukan diet , sya sllu melakukan ritual eat whatever i want to  lol lucu sih kya kita mau membuang lemak v kita isi dulu sebanyak^^y ....sama aja boOng kan ? :P
    dan krana semalem ada pasar malam so sya beli makanN yg sya suka ehm....yum...yummy kenyang bgt v kga hbs sih msh ada buat besok pagi.

  Dan seprti biasa"y ku bangun jam 6:30 dan langsung pegang sapu , oopps lupa pengang  hp dlu beberapa menit dan mulai kerjaanku dan jam 8 selesai , dan sya cba melakukan workout slma 7 ment v kya udah 30 mnt , sumpah cape bgt dan ada gerakan yg sya skipped lol  v lumayan sih buat keringetan.

    and i back to my sofa and sitting on there as always I'd :D dan jam 10:30 sya laper bagt so grap something on frige but i shouldn't don't eat in  the morning time i only can eat on my lunch time as mas deddy said :D

   jam 11:45 sya makan siang v cmn sma tahu basi yg kemaren Ama bli karna kga hbs so dia kash ke sya dan sblm sya memakan makan siang sya , sya minum dua gelas air supaya tam merasa lapar trus , hbs selesai makan jam 1 i took my nap then woke up at 2 p,m but today on afternoon time i didn't have feel hungry ir wanted to eat some snacks Hehehehe but i was always feels that feeling lol

dan tdi mlm cmn makan nasi dikit sama lauk yg lumayan banyak :D plus minum 2 gelas air putih dan seblm tdr sya sllu minum satu gelas air putih

so that's my day i had through it

MY 30 DAYS DIET challenge

       May you'll feel boring if hear me "I'm on diet program" and might you've been heard that for several times or maybe more lol , as you know All girls they have dream wants to be Skinny but had hobby eating ,snaking and lazy for workout  ooops i thought is only me :D 
  

   Waktu Saya SMA BB Sya Sampe 85 kg Wow so fat  v ketika lulus dan stressed ragara cari kerja v kga dpet^^ Dan 10 kg lemak sya 
hilang entah kemna , Mungkin ada yg nyuri kali.... Bhahahahahahxox so my weight was 75 kg dan itu bertahan sampai setahun trus Turun lagi ketika ku bekerja di arab , kga banyak sih cmn 2 kg  yaa lumayanlah , bikin nih pipi kga sebulet bakpao lol , v karna i love so much Indonesian foods so my weight back to the normal is 75 kg. seperti pepatah mengatakan mempertahankan sesuatu itu lebih sulit dari pada mendapatkanya .

     Dan Ku berangkat ke taiwan dan itu adalah keberangkatanku yang pertama ke sna V syank"y i ain't that lucky i got not good employer and made me so depressed and i lose 7 kg on couple weeks 'coz i was want  to back to my country but my bozz wasn't allowed me. so my weight was on 69 kg Wow I'd like it lol ( di bozz ini sya cuman bekerja selma satu thn ) I'll tell you later if i fone with my 30 days challenge 

    Dan seperti biasa setiap pulang ke rumah BB sya akan sellu naik dan itu menjadi 72 kg dan mash bertahan di bulan pertama saya di taiwan di bozz baru ( bozz sya yg sekarng) . karna mungkin kerjaan ku ringan hanya duduk temenin Akong atau Ama dan hanya sibuk 7 hri  selma sebulan So I'm getting fatter And Fatter 
pa lagi kalau musim dingin hawa nafsu makan tidak bisa di control plus if i on period too 

     Selama 1 thn 8 Bulan sya sudh melakukan 2 kali medical check up dan
 medical pertama  : my weight is 73 kg  on March 2014 
medical kedua        : my weight is 77 kg   on March  2015 

So satu thn BB sya Naik 4 Kg  dan sebulan lalu karna sya sudah tidak merasa nyaman ketika duduk so secara diam^^ ketika sya bersih^^ ke kamar majikan sya , sya timbang BB and OMG i can't bet what i see that showed if my weight is 80 kg  GOOOSSSHHH why i like didn't fking care with myself and still eat .....eat,....and eat...! and i did that on last  month 

that's on 80 kg looks my tummy is so big and large and don't forget about my thighs are same as two thighs of skinny girls lol 
my reason why i want sharing with all of you 'coz might with I'd that you can to help me 'coz I'll share everyday and I'll try to be honest and nothing will i hide from you .

me on 69 kg  "August 2013"

me on 73 i took that on last summer 2014 

  Tbh I'm quite shame if i sharing my weight to the public but might if i succeed it's give inspiration for others girls who  had fat body as I'm and wanted to lose weight but always failed.

Patrick Allison

  

  Well coz first article is all about my past so i think you should  To know with Someone who so mean to me 

And He's Patrick Allison , i met him when i figure out about new App and it was  Meow Chat ,Well he was so different with other men i met before on Random chat 'coz he was Nice , Polite And the funny thing he writes down all about him on his status so i no need to ask him much lol 

     After Day to day We more close and honestly it's the hardest thing for me 'coz i should searching what the nice topic should i talking to him for he doesn't feel boring with me lol So i tried to play flatter with him such an Indonesian guy's do to a girl , aahh it was funny and I'm glad 'coz he likes it 

       

    He so kind 'coz he would help me to learn English and i unbelievable 'coz Who am i ? I'm only Caregiver but He ? 

he's an American guy and He had a nice job and ofc a nice salary  too and we was talking about a lot things included about our past too and He's gud listeners but sometimes he made me tired 'coz i should exercise my thumb to Google translate and then go to our room chat lol 'coz was it my English so bad i even don't know how to use Does , Do or Did but after i had joined at BBIO 

OMG i got much improved and I'm so happy 'coz not only knowledge i got but also a gud friends ;D  love u all ;* 

   Well let's we back to Patrick , we  were talking every days 

and i think he's lucky guy 'coz on his life had two girls always accompany him every days it's me and Camilla (his gf)
   And their also met on Meow too , but i don't know why , why she so jealous with me but honestly nothing happened with me and Patrick we're truly friend so we hadn't other choice we should stop our friendship for she doesn't get jealous of me again but it was hardest thing for us  :( we already feel comfortable to each other and I'll lose lose person as great as here.

and it's the last words before he left me

"i think it's for the best if we don't talk anymore , Camilla is just to jealous  of me for some reason and i think it's just for the best . if you want to look at my Fb that's ok, idk I'm sorry my friend i hope you're not upset with me and i wish you the best , you'll always be my sweet blood and don't ever forget you're a gud and beautiful person ;) keep smiling no matter hpwhat happens , your smile always made me happy and don't forget either you've the coolest and one of the most beautiful names i have seen or heard  . Goodbye my friend and don't forget about me 'coz I'd never forget about you  i hold you always in my prayers :) p.s 
dont let mosquitoes drain too much for your blood or they might die of sugar poisoning :P hehehe be well have fun my friend. " 


 and ofc i won't forget about you , you can see that i still remember about  you , you're already had space in my heart and i think no one can replace you , although we not talking anymore and i can't seen your fb either but I'm glad i can seen your PP if you had changed and i saw you've enjoying your lifep e so might be oneday if you already have a  baby and you put it be your pp so i can to see it :) as i hope before i wanted to see a little Patrick lol 



and I'd like if you always smiling and showing your teeth as this pic

My First Experience on the Airplane

 

     Maybe this article kinda Deso but I don't Care 'coz it was what happened on be before and i just wanted to share with you or maybe you also had experienced like me too lol 

   My first flight is on November 2009 and it's 'coz i worked as Indonesian workers in  OMAN if not 'coz that i will not know how the feel sitting on the airplane 'coz as you all know I'm not rich people, :D 

  

   It'll takes long times if i write down in English so let's Move to Indonesian language :P 

   Jadi sama pengurus Pt kita di antarkan ke Bandara , stlh sampai ada petugas lain yg mengurus smw"y , seperti tiket , passport dan bla....bla...., Ohh yeah dulu W Cmn Bawa tas jinjing dan Bukan hanya W sendri tapi temn^^ yg lain Jga sama , 

i wonder why if we want to flight to the Arabic country we can't bring suitcase But only small bag ? i don't know why .

   Dan setelah semuanya tlah di urus kita di sruh untuk pegi ke ruang Tunggu pesawat datang V sebln itu tas kita di periksa sama petugas Pt dan ada teman w yg tas"y berat trus di tanya 

Petugas  :   " Kmu bawa apa aja "?! 

Temn w  :  " bawa mangga tipipan agency pak "

petugas   :   " jangn Tidak boleh terllu berat di bawa di pesawat                           !"sini sya sja yg simpan !! (i knew he's lied he just wants to eat those mangoes but we can't do anything 'coz we hadn't any power to say NO so my friend she obeys what he said to her ) kadang petugas itu mentang^^ punya Power so mereka Melakukan SeEnx Mau"y 

  

   Ohh yeah my first flight it was using Emirates airline  and it was quite Big and lucky me , I'm sitting next to the window so i can see the beautiful views from outside , it was amazing. 

 

  Dan setelah pesawat datang dengan rasa berdebarng w Memasuki terowongan tuk menuju ke pesawat dan setalh sampai  pramugrai minta w tuk nunjukin tiket tempat duduk dan dia blng "kanan dan lurus  saja"dan W pada waktu itu tidak terbang sendri , Banyak Tkw^^ lainya yg terbang ke negara arab Dan w tebak itu separo dari pesawat lol Dan kalian bisa banyain sendri Gimna Rame"y 

  

  i said to myself and said Ohh God please Make them silence 'coz they're too noisy and it's so embarrassing ,their talks too loudly

"Hii tempat duduk sya dimna ?!"  Koper taroh dimnaa ?!!!! etc and it seems like I'm at traditional market not on airplane lol 

     Dan setlah kita dapet tempat duduk masih^^ pramugrai menjelaskan gimna cara pke sabuk , tau ada Kejadian yg tidak kita harapkan "What should we'd " 

     

   'coz is my first experience so the all those things on airplane isn't friendly to me and i got confused how to use it,  like i want to watch the video but i don't how  to turn on or  where i should put the headset and fortunately near me is a gud man so he wants to tell me how to use it 

    But had one excited and it's made me afraid of it 

Had our friend and she went to restroom but when she wants to out she didn't know how to open the door and made her screamed and said "Please help me open the door" and lucky her the stewardess helped her out and we just smiling at her and  i said to myself i won't go there 'coz i don't want have the embarrassing moment as she had lol 

      'coz the flight quite long so i can't hold it any longer so with say *bismillah I entered the door But i didn't log it and i did that with faster might be it was not taking for 5 minutes  lol 

and it was my experience but  about you guy's ? 

My New Life

      As all teenager when their finished their study at high school 
their Had two choices are continue to study at college or other one is looking for a  job , As i knew my skill isn't as clever as other people and I'm not from rich family so i chose to looking a job and i was so hopefully i could get a job as fast as i wanted. then after that  i moved to tanggerang where my sisters live in it , 

  i was so excited "Ohh God I'll have much money so from my job so i can buy anything what i want  but the fact isn't as easy as i thought , almosta year i looking a job but i didn't get it 
i felt jealous with my friends 'coz their can get a job but me still jobless  and i felt uncomfortable living with my first sister 'coz she kinda fastidious and I'm as you knew  I'm annoying so we can't live at one roof lol so i  moved to my second sister and poor her 'coz she got dieses made her uneasily to giving a birth. 
       
     But  i found something if WORLD isn't what i thought  is so complicated and i was so depressed, felt looser ,useless , etc my feelings are like es Campur  and yeah my bad is blamed to God " Why me ?"   Oh my Lord what is wrong with me ?! why you not help  me when i needed you to find me a job 'coz i need that for realizing my dreams and i was crying on.... crying on every night and it was making my sister worried and i also feel ashamed if i should back to my village 'coz i not success yet and what will i bring later Nothing , 

     then my sister  asked to spiritual what should I'd to have luck and then he said "Say to your young sister for she should washing her mom's Foot and then after that drink that water. and i did but the first thing i said "Ema i knew i had a lot mistakes on , i many times made you crying or i was always wished if God should take you first not Bapa , I'm really sorry i not realize if what i done is wrong  so that's why God punished me like now, please forgive me Ma ?" 
and Alhamdulillah my Ema said yeah i already forgiven you before you said those words to me , then after all done i go to bathroom 'coz i don't want my mom looks me do that I'm kinda shy lol . 


 "WHAT YOU SOW WHAT YOU'LL REAP
And The most important things Surga is on your mother Foot So treat your mother Gud before she  left you and you hadn't any choice  

*My life When i was childhood*

 

Masa Kecil Mungkin sebagian orang berpikir itu adalah masa^^ yg indah , V Tidak bagi ku..!

Ku lahir tgl 25 Agust 1990 , Tak di sangka usia ku sudah memasuki Masa Expiry bagi wanita indonesia lol 

*And guys 'coz you already knew when I'm birthday so don't forget to give me some gifts Oklek (^_-)* Well let's we back to my story (^_^;)  

Aku adalah Anx terakhir dri 4 bersaudara , Ayahku meninggl 

ketika usia ku msh 6 tahun , sebenrnya ku tak ingat banyak tentang sosok   ayahku V ku sellu mengingat dia adlh Sosok ayah yg baik dan sellu memanjakanku , ku msh ingat ku sllu di bawa ketika bpa Berjualan sate dan ku sllu merasa senang ketika bpa mengajakku karna dia sellu tersenyum ketika melihat ku  ,

    V  yeaahhh....mungkin bukan sosk suami yg baik bagi ibuku karna dulu ketika beliau msh hidup sellu bertengkar dengn ibu ,

well karna Bpa tlah tiada so pasti ibu hrs kerja keras membanting tulang untuk membiayi hidup ku dan kakak^^ ku ,

Dan setelah Bpa meninggal ku berubah jadi anx Nakl (Yeah nakal kata mereka yg telah merusak hidupku dan Masa kanak^^ku , pa sih nakl"y nak umur 6 thn kga ampe bakar Rumah tau Bunuh orang) !!! 

   Dan ketika SD ku bukan anx yg pintar V ku adalah Anx yg Rajin nyontek sma Sepupuku lol , beruntung"y hidupku punya seppu yg pintar dan seperti biasa keluargaku memanjakanku . 

ku tak pernh nyuci baju sendri sampe umur 6 SD krna dlu semua kakak^^ku yg melakukanya. ( and it's really wrong don't ever teach your kids like that 'coz it's only Damaging the future of your kids) 

   Ohhh yeah sejak kecil aku tumbuh dengan Bullies bukan hanya dri tetangga Sampai tante^^ ku pun membully ku 

yeah Karna Aku *GENDUT*  *JOROK* *AMBURADUL* 

V Itu Bukan Hak KALIAN ..!!!! KALIAN...!! tuk Membully ku 

dengn Memberi sebutan *Gajah bengkak , Paus , Pretty sinta tau artis dengn Big size lainya*  Haiiiii ....!!! kalian lupa .?! Aku dulu Msh Kecil dan kalian tak pernah berpikir dengn Mental sya Nanti ?!  

*KALIAAAN SMW ADALAH PERUSAK HIDUP SAYA* 

Sekarang kalian puas !! Ku serang menjadi apa yg kalian Mau 

Seekor Gajah ! kalian hanya lihat tumbunan Lemak dan tubuh tegap saya V kalian Tak pernah tau Betapa Hancur berlebur Hati ini Dan sampai sekrng Bekas"y msh terasa. Dan yeaaah itu lah Hebat"y Efek Dri Bully Bukan tubuh yg terluka V luka Batin.

and it's made me cry when i should flashback and remember all those hurts things on my life   

my first day on being blogger

my  first day being blogger 😊


to be honest i still confused how this works and i also don't know what should i wrote in here , 'coz i ain't gud in writing who can say a nice or wishes words . 😄😄😄


So maybe next time I'll say something useful


Ciyuletah 😆